dream

each day passes by and i am left thinking.. what do i want from my life.still dunno.i somehow know what i dont want my life to be like.. but what i want it to be like?seriously what? i havent read the alchemist yet.Neha said i am missing out on something too good and that imust must must read it.so i had gone to crosswords yde (thr is new and awesome and huge one on senapati bapat road now, if i ever end up staying at UWA hostel i will surely utilise it to the fullest...).. and was in all plans of buying alchemist.read its summary behind the book.. "alchemist is about following your dreams.." it said.. it said it is about scaling any number of mountains to get the one thing you want. hmm sounds good. interesting.. was gonna buy it too but then i thot that for reading books like this i must first know what is tht dream of mine right?without knowing that how can i possibly follow it? how can i possibly scale huge mountains to reach it?how God how? It scares me to be in this state. i so wish someone would give me a direction.. tell me what i want from life.i know sound soooo lame. how can someone else tell what u want from life if u urself cant.. but i really want to wake up one day to find that "hey yeah!this is it... now i am gonna fight with all my might for this one thing... Yess!" but no. havent happened yet.. cud it be that i dont want anthing from life? nahi na? aise to nahi na hoga?or is it that i expect tooo much outa things? (this is wat a jyotishi told my mom.. he said that i have too many expectations outa life and so it wud be difficult to find a guy for me.. so better start soon!) well, watever.. i think i dnt accept things.. i dont accept that the world has changed.. i still try to live in a world wherein things are quite different.. and that is the problem... should i change myself then? i guess i'll try a little more and then think of changing myself.. try a little more to find the "Dream",the one thing that i will be crazily passionate about... but i dont want to end up being too late so i gotta make it fast... Luv pals.