TO THINK OR NOT TO THINK ... is the question

This post is the reaction of my friend to My First Blog... below.... We have alwz shared a very special relationship... a gr8 friendship... i alwz knew i can talk to her bout nething in this world.. and she will understand... yet she is so different from me is what i realised from this conversation! Very different.......

<> FRIEND: wat ws dat? i mean u really think so much? u sound so BIG <>me: yes i do wierd kya?dint like it? <>FRIEND: weird... really..

i dnt noe wat to say...

me: abe itna kya hua?

FRIEND: pata nai..

<> me: me behave karti hoo itni idiot nahi hoo u mean i am an idiot :| <> FRIEND: i eman i never said u r an idiot... just dat.......its too heavy.. <>me: hehehehe hang ho gayi na tu

FRIEND: ya

<> me: but seriously wat do u think... dont thik i wrote it and all jst generally what do u think on the topic?can u comment? <>FRIEND: seriously... ders nothing to comment.. kisis aur ka hota to i wld hv thot..kya bore insaan hai..

me: raji... u make me feel like a fool...

<> FRIEND: sorry swthrt... i didnt mean to..

me: i mean seriously... what is wrong with it? u dont agree or wat with it? or its just that kuch bhi bakwaas thing..... jus a small comment.... y so wierd ?

<> FRIEND: u r a srious girl...wow i guess i never think so much...

me: ok listen, i do think all this stuff... and i am very wierd but still i am not boring yaar.... i have another side too!

<> FRIEND : i noe u r not boring... u wldnt b a gd frnd if u were boring.. <> me: :) its good u dont think so much its nerving at times <>FRIEND: u'll take life tooo seriously.. <> me: hmm no re raji... aisi baat nahi hai its jst things that come up in my mind automatically <> FRIEND: wen Neha used to say we are differnt..i knew we were. but we r realllllly diff <>FRIEND: mai shayad itna nai sochti... seriously i dnt noe wat else to say <> FRIEND: tum har cheez ko kaafi analyze karte ho.. <> me: hmm u know wat raji?i belive u must think <> FRIEND: i dnt blv dat i just let tings go..

me: coz otherwise u just go on living

<> FRIEND: dats wat i want to do.. i want to live./.. <>me: thats wat i am doing ok chod....cant explain wat i wana say <> FRIEND: haan chod... u'll r gr8...seriously..kaafi sochte ho.. <> me: u think its gr8? i mean wat <> FRIEND: ya..i cant think... if i think so much...i will probably loose it rather i hv never given nethng such a serious thot in life

me : i know wat i exaclt want from life etc bcoz of all this thinknig only...

FRIEND: i noe dat too..but i never thot so much

me: hmm

<>FRIEND: sahi hai bachchon... hats off ot u two

me: ek baar karke dekh think... u seriously belive all this GOD thing and all? i mean how can u accept everything ppl say ?

<> FRIEND: wait i dnt listen to ppl..i ahve always done wat i felt like... i ahve compromised only wen for my parents... n i never gave nethng so much thot.. me : hmm..feeling wierd bout myself <> FRIEND: me feeling weird too.. kuch bohat alag alag raha hai... <> FRIEND: i felt a bit like dis wen we were together at nite us din neha ke yahaan.. next day sochi mai ki tumlog kitna sochte ho... i mean seriously kaafi sochte hio...

Don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out of it alive

me: ha re yedi <> FRIEND: hehhehe.. mujhe ab gurantee hogai hai ki mai yedi hu..

me : oye tuze kya lagme laga hai? ki i take life verrry seriously and stuff? and so all this thinknig? its not that swthrt belive it or not... aise hota to i wud have been more normal...

<>FRIEND: one of us is normal...its either u or me..v r not the same for sure... <> me: thr can b 3 types one is normal one is u and one is me

<> the normal ppl just do all normal things they dont think also

FRIEND: i m happy being normal..

<> me: and they dnt do also anything the other is u u dont think much but u do think subconciously

FRIEND: i have never thot if i thnk subconsciously or not

me: u DO NOT realise it... trust me... and the eccentric things u do.. etc... is coz of that.... and one mre thing... u say na wat got into me when i did so n so? well, its the result of subconcious thinknig ur heart has done for you... u dunno.... really... and so i tell u to alwz listen to ur heart and follow wat ur heart says..........

BAHUT JYADABAKWAAAAAAAAAAAS

satsang

<> FRIEND: wooooooooooooooow u really can think swthrt.. well i dnt noe abt subconscious n stuff...but if i do as u say..i m happy with it <>me: :) so u see...3 types of ppl <> FRIEND: ya mayb... 2 i m sure...3 ka pat anai

me: i beliv in 3...

<> FRIEND: but i do love the other category...(urs) ok..mayb levels differ...probablyi dnt think tooo...........but i m fun

me: and fun coz u do eccentric things...

FRIEND: ok i ahve dona a paricular thing..

me: which soceity (the boring normals) think is wrng

FRIEND: but wat else..

me: raji rajan

FRIEND: c u r again thinking...

<> me: smaal small things the way u talk

FRIEND: oh..

me: kaminepanti

FRIEND: hehehhe

me: chidhana

thr is smething diffenent bout u right? read ur testimonials

<> FRIEND : yaaaaaaaaaa............ ppl love me..:)) <> me: some piece of not normall tnig.... shut up <> FRIEND: hehhehehhehehheheh i need to grow up.. <> me: well, COEP hostel has done smethings to me and u know wat changed me the most raji? the FAILED REGATTA

FRIEND: hmm..

FRIEND: probably i dont think mayb coz nothing in life ever took me so much,...

<> me: made me think a lot... and u know why thinking helps even morE?

NOW THIS IS GONA BE WORSE

if u think so much....then u know ur subconcious thots.. u r aware of them all... and then u can actually actually predict things... Trust me it happens... u simply know.... u simply simply know... its kinda sixth sense raji.. but u simply know

FRIEND: mayb...intutons i do blv in...

<>me: and yeah u r right u gotta be intensely passionate bout smething to gt into this type of ppl.... smething mst happen to u that makes u think neha ko coep hostel hua mujhe boat club hua <> FRIEND: pata nai re.. aisa kya hojata hai?y does smthng affect u so much.. i mean affect ne1 so much..

me: thr is point when u r in turmoil... utter depression... say my homesicknesss. remember how i had cried at ur place... but then once u think grow up u r at peace coz u understnad everytnig that is going on.. U UNDERSTNAD what is going on... and that gives u peace...

what is tumoil? U DONT UNDERSTAND KYA HO RHAA HAI KYU HO RAHA HAI.... thats turmoil..when u think ...u know.................. then no turmoil... dat is wat has made me and neha like this

<> FRIEND: i dnt noe.. i ahve felt sad..n depressed.but isa kya hojata hai? But then evreything always goes..everyting always bcomes rgt..

me: u dont know kya hua hai... and that is y u r depressed...

once u know the root coz kya and kyu.... u can deal with it fight it... or atleast not worry bout it if u know that it is temporary and will go....

raji trust me neither me nor neha ever wanted to become like this.. not that we deicded and thot... it happens.. u dont have an option...

FRIEND: i dnt noe..n probably rgt now i cant undersatnd wat can happen dat can affect so much..

me: IT IS SO WITH ME ALSO... AUTOMATICAALLY IT GOES... ALL BECOMESRGIHT... BUT AT HOSTEL IT DID NOT HAPPEN... I WAITED... IT DID NOT... ULTIMATELY I HAD TO CHANGE...

<> FRIEND: i can nvere take nethng s seriously.......... mayb i dnt feel ne emotion so seriously..i dnt take ne emotion so seriously.. <> me: no one wants to raji voluntarily it happens <> FRIEND: pata nai.. u make it happen...u take things seriously n dis is wat happens

me: u think neha wanted all that frustration at hostel?

<> FRIEND: no i m not saying abt the situations.. situtaions r not in ur hand...but hw u react definitely is..

me: that is wat got us thinking in the first place raji... and now it has become inevitable! now v think on everything

<>FRIEND : probablu i can never...probably..

me: and trust me raji i am much more at peace wid myself this wayz i understand myself better.... ..

FRIEND : i love myself too..

<> me: yeah just njoy the way u r! <> FRIEND: i never got to the conept of undersatnding oneself.. wats der to?..u r wat u r..mayb my thinking powers r gone for a toss...

me: chod raji... seriously

FRIEND: ya..

me: aur bata kaam?

FRIEND: working on a new application...

me: hmm

wierd!

My best friend alwz scolds me for writing wierd the wrng way.previously i used to write it wrng subconciously and she usd to corrct me.. and now coz of the insistent correcting i notice it evrytme i wrte this word... and purposely write it wrng.... yeah i am wierd... :) Well, i really wonder what is soo wierd bout me... well, as one of my very good friends pointed out... (after reading my first blog) i think too much and take life too seriously... 'dont take life too seriously u will never get out of it alive' she quoted.... I agree.. never will anyone get out of it alive.. but thr sure r ways to stay alive even after u r gone! I had read somewhr 'even if one soul has breathed more freely coz u have lived... that is being successful'.. Ok.. then does my search end here? have i found the meaning of life? so i have to help ppl around me to breath freely... i mean obviously help them out! but hey hey!!! aint that totally contrary to what everybody is out to do today? i mean who cares if someone else is breathing freely or not? let him choke if he has to... i am breathing freely... and my loved ones are breathing freely... so that is enuf right? but then aint that being absolutely unsuccessful in life? i mean going by the previous mentioned definition! but duniya aj aisi hi hai... told my mom to me one day...... ok so is thr any point in living in this duniya? i mean really, 'if i have to die unsuccessfully one day... why waste time living?' That day i read the book 'Veronica Decides to Die' by paulo Coelho.. related to it... It that book this female Veronica decides to commit suicide... No.. she is not depressed.. in fact she is having the most perfect life one could possibly have! i mean she has loads of boyfriends... good career.. nice family... PERFECT! but then thr is something she still cannot find and so decided to die... thats is the meaning of life... she is unable to find the meaning of her life... Is life only bout making a good career, having a good handsome and rich husband.. and then having talented kids ? Dont know .. For 95% ppl ..yes this is exactly what is life... and i feel jealous of those ppl... coz they have found the meaning of their life... I havent... not yet...

My First Blog

i dunno what is life.. 
i dunno what is the span of 60 yrs that ppl spend on this planet doing things to make themselves happy and then die and vanish like they had never newz been on this earth.. 

and yeah leaving a trace DOES NOT mean leaving a family tree.. seriously what is life? 

those 60 yrs? and y do we get these yrs? is thr a reason for it? 

i guess i am not the first one to ask these questions... life seems useless, meaningless.. no i am not depressed.. 

I am very happy.. but still.. and the first person who asked these question realised that if every person starts thinking this way world wud b a disaster and so he invented all those theories about God.. 
about reincarnation, abt sins and stuff.. so life gets a meaning.. 

i am not an atheist.. but i dont believe in God as is the God who needs to be pleased by offering him stuff.. 

who needs to be visited on a particular day of every week.. God is a friend.. 

kind of a co-conspirator who scolds me when i am wrong.. but again is at times with me when i am being naughty..

Well, so that pretty much explains why i chose to call my blog as Life and ME! 

becoz i am too intrigued by the concept of life..