Immature Supervision

So I have taken to reading Seth Godin's blog a lot lately.
Recently he wrote a post about how people's reaction to pressure is what really matters and not the pressure itself.
Which reminded me of one common feedback I received when I quit my job at Piramal.

"Even under the worst pressures, you will see Pallavi calmly doing her work, methodically, unfazed"

They even showed that in a video made about our team... everyone is running around, and I am sitting at my desk and calmly working.

And this feedback got me by surprise and in fact made me feel angry.

I remember those chaotic moments very well and I also remember that my mental state at that time can be described as anything but calm. I would always feel like I was on the brink of a breakdown.

but it appeared to my bosses that I was all gathered... 

Yes, after the work was done or when I would finally come home, my husband could see the chaos in my head (and probably experience the 'heat' too)... but while at work, no one ever noticed!

And no, I did not particularly try to mask it... I was just doing my work and I knew that in chaos, chaos was counterproductive. 

What is important here is not the part wherein I tried to do the job under pressure but the part wherein all my bosses (and superbosses) misunderstood me. 

When a person is trying very hard to keep things in order in a hopelessly pressurized situation, the last thing she needs is an assumption from the bosses that she can handle pressure well....

and then be surprised when she finally snaps. 

As a boss, your short term goal is to get the job-on-hand done.
But a seasoned boss knows that knowing exactly what the person working for you is going through can help him in the longer run...

Gratitude

Being grateful is not easy. Not when your mind is so accustomed to finding what you don't have and to trying to achieve it. We call it progressing.

But being grateful is the first step to tuning in to the universe.
How does one be grateful? What does it mean to be grateful? How to be grateful without entering into the feeling of getting something despite being worthy of it?

Being grateful is to be humble.
Knowing that there were a lot of things the universe did so you could give in your best and get where you got.

Being grateful is to feel protected.
Feeling the ball of light around you.

Being grateful is to be at peace.
If the universe helped me with this, it will help me again when I need it.

Being grateful is being happy.
Value that what the universe gave you. Respect it. Don't sob and undermine it.

Being grateful is to always remember friends and family.
Gratitude is not just restricted to the universe. Never forgetting how and when your friends stood by you, especially when you are on the top, that is being grateful.

Being grateful is being proud.
Being proud of yourself that you were able to attract from universe those beautiful things that you got. You got them only because you deserved them.

Be Grateful. The universe loves you.

PS: Apart from those who are a part of these discussions, people will find this post to be random. Kindly excuse :-)