TO THINK OR NOT TO THINK ... is the question

This post is the reaction of my friend to My First Blog... below.... We have alwz shared a very special relationship... a gr8 friendship... i alwz knew i can talk to her bout nething in this world.. and she will understand... yet she is so different from me is what i realised from this conversation! Very different.......

<> FRIEND: wat ws dat? i mean u really think so much? u sound so BIG <>me: yes i do wierd kya?dint like it? <>FRIEND: weird... really..

i dnt noe wat to say...

me: abe itna kya hua?

FRIEND: pata nai..

<> me: me behave karti hoo itni idiot nahi hoo u mean i am an idiot :| <> FRIEND: i eman i never said u r an idiot... just dat.......its too heavy.. <>me: hehehehe hang ho gayi na tu

FRIEND: ya

<> me: but seriously wat do u think... dont thik i wrote it and all jst generally what do u think on the topic?can u comment? <>FRIEND: seriously... ders nothing to comment.. kisis aur ka hota to i wld hv thot..kya bore insaan hai..

me: raji... u make me feel like a fool...

<> FRIEND: sorry swthrt... i didnt mean to..

me: i mean seriously... what is wrong with it? u dont agree or wat with it? or its just that kuch bhi bakwaas thing..... jus a small comment.... y so wierd ?

<> FRIEND: u r a srious girl...wow i guess i never think so much...

me: ok listen, i do think all this stuff... and i am very wierd but still i am not boring yaar.... i have another side too!

<> FRIEND : i noe u r not boring... u wldnt b a gd frnd if u were boring.. <> me: :) its good u dont think so much its nerving at times <>FRIEND: u'll take life tooo seriously.. <> me: hmm no re raji... aisi baat nahi hai its jst things that come up in my mind automatically <> FRIEND: wen Neha used to say we are differnt..i knew we were. but we r realllllly diff <>FRIEND: mai shayad itna nai sochti... seriously i dnt noe wat else to say <> FRIEND: tum har cheez ko kaafi analyze karte ho.. <> me: hmm u know wat raji?i belive u must think <> FRIEND: i dnt blv dat i just let tings go..

me: coz otherwise u just go on living

<> FRIEND: dats wat i want to do.. i want to live./.. <>me: thats wat i am doing ok chod....cant explain wat i wana say <> FRIEND: haan chod... u'll r gr8...seriously..kaafi sochte ho.. <> me: u think its gr8? i mean wat <> FRIEND: ya..i cant think... if i think so much...i will probably loose it rather i hv never given nethng such a serious thot in life

me : i know wat i exaclt want from life etc bcoz of all this thinknig only...

FRIEND: i noe dat too..but i never thot so much

me: hmm

<>FRIEND: sahi hai bachchon... hats off ot u two

me: ek baar karke dekh think... u seriously belive all this GOD thing and all? i mean how can u accept everything ppl say ?

<> FRIEND: wait i dnt listen to ppl..i ahve always done wat i felt like... i ahve compromised only wen for my parents... n i never gave nethng so much thot.. me : hmm..feeling wierd bout myself <> FRIEND: me feeling weird too.. kuch bohat alag alag raha hai... <> FRIEND: i felt a bit like dis wen we were together at nite us din neha ke yahaan.. next day sochi mai ki tumlog kitna sochte ho... i mean seriously kaafi sochte hio...

Don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out of it alive

me: ha re yedi <> FRIEND: hehhehe.. mujhe ab gurantee hogai hai ki mai yedi hu..

me : oye tuze kya lagme laga hai? ki i take life verrry seriously and stuff? and so all this thinknig? its not that swthrt belive it or not... aise hota to i wud have been more normal...

<>FRIEND: one of us is normal...its either u or me..v r not the same for sure... <> me: thr can b 3 types one is normal one is u and one is me

<> the normal ppl just do all normal things they dont think also

FRIEND: i m happy being normal..

<> me: and they dnt do also anything the other is u u dont think much but u do think subconciously

FRIEND: i have never thot if i thnk subconsciously or not

me: u DO NOT realise it... trust me... and the eccentric things u do.. etc... is coz of that.... and one mre thing... u say na wat got into me when i did so n so? well, its the result of subconcious thinknig ur heart has done for you... u dunno.... really... and so i tell u to alwz listen to ur heart and follow wat ur heart says..........

BAHUT JYADABAKWAAAAAAAAAAAS

satsang

<> FRIEND: wooooooooooooooow u really can think swthrt.. well i dnt noe abt subconscious n stuff...but if i do as u say..i m happy with it <>me: :) so u see...3 types of ppl <> FRIEND: ya mayb... 2 i m sure...3 ka pat anai

me: i beliv in 3...

<> FRIEND: but i do love the other category...(urs) ok..mayb levels differ...probablyi dnt think tooo...........but i m fun

me: and fun coz u do eccentric things...

FRIEND: ok i ahve dona a paricular thing..

me: which soceity (the boring normals) think is wrng

FRIEND: but wat else..

me: raji rajan

FRIEND: c u r again thinking...

<> me: smaal small things the way u talk

FRIEND: oh..

me: kaminepanti

FRIEND: hehehhe

me: chidhana

thr is smething diffenent bout u right? read ur testimonials

<> FRIEND : yaaaaaaaaaa............ ppl love me..:)) <> me: some piece of not normall tnig.... shut up <> FRIEND: hehhehehhehehheheh i need to grow up.. <> me: well, COEP hostel has done smethings to me and u know wat changed me the most raji? the FAILED REGATTA

FRIEND: hmm..

FRIEND: probably i dont think mayb coz nothing in life ever took me so much,...

<> me: made me think a lot... and u know why thinking helps even morE?

NOW THIS IS GONA BE WORSE

if u think so much....then u know ur subconcious thots.. u r aware of them all... and then u can actually actually predict things... Trust me it happens... u simply know.... u simply simply know... its kinda sixth sense raji.. but u simply know

FRIEND: mayb...intutons i do blv in...

<>me: and yeah u r right u gotta be intensely passionate bout smething to gt into this type of ppl.... smething mst happen to u that makes u think neha ko coep hostel hua mujhe boat club hua <> FRIEND: pata nai re.. aisa kya hojata hai?y does smthng affect u so much.. i mean affect ne1 so much..

me: thr is point when u r in turmoil... utter depression... say my homesicknesss. remember how i had cried at ur place... but then once u think grow up u r at peace coz u understnad everytnig that is going on.. U UNDERSTNAD what is going on... and that gives u peace...

what is tumoil? U DONT UNDERSTAND KYA HO RHAA HAI KYU HO RAHA HAI.... thats turmoil..when u think ...u know.................. then no turmoil... dat is wat has made me and neha like this

<> FRIEND: i dnt noe.. i ahve felt sad..n depressed.but isa kya hojata hai? But then evreything always goes..everyting always bcomes rgt..

me: u dont know kya hua hai... and that is y u r depressed...

once u know the root coz kya and kyu.... u can deal with it fight it... or atleast not worry bout it if u know that it is temporary and will go....

raji trust me neither me nor neha ever wanted to become like this.. not that we deicded and thot... it happens.. u dont have an option...

FRIEND: i dnt noe..n probably rgt now i cant undersatnd wat can happen dat can affect so much..

me: IT IS SO WITH ME ALSO... AUTOMATICAALLY IT GOES... ALL BECOMESRGIHT... BUT AT HOSTEL IT DID NOT HAPPEN... I WAITED... IT DID NOT... ULTIMATELY I HAD TO CHANGE...

<> FRIEND: i can nvere take nethng s seriously.......... mayb i dnt feel ne emotion so seriously..i dnt take ne emotion so seriously.. <> me: no one wants to raji voluntarily it happens <> FRIEND: pata nai.. u make it happen...u take things seriously n dis is wat happens

me: u think neha wanted all that frustration at hostel?

<> FRIEND: no i m not saying abt the situations.. situtaions r not in ur hand...but hw u react definitely is..

me: that is wat got us thinking in the first place raji... and now it has become inevitable! now v think on everything

<>FRIEND : probablu i can never...probably..

me: and trust me raji i am much more at peace wid myself this wayz i understand myself better.... ..

FRIEND : i love myself too..

<> me: yeah just njoy the way u r! <> FRIEND: i never got to the conept of undersatnding oneself.. wats der to?..u r wat u r..mayb my thinking powers r gone for a toss...

me: chod raji... seriously

FRIEND: ya..

me: aur bata kaam?

FRIEND: working on a new application...

me: hmm